CW: 89,5 kg/197,3 lbs (BMI 32,1)
Loss: + 3,2 kg/7,1 lbs
GW1: 78 kg/171,9 lbs (BMI 28)
CW: 86,4 kg/190,5 lbs (BMI 31,0)
Loss: 3,1, kg/6,8 lbs
GW1: 78 kg/171,9 lbs (BMI 28)
So, I'm starting the ABC over. Failed pretty hugely yesterday, when made to eat all that shit down by the scouts.
Today is a fast, to rid myself of all that before-mentioned shit. Then tomorrow, I will start ABC again. I'm so sorry for being such a failure girls, but it's better that you know the truth. I could have told you that I made it, but I don't believe lying is the way to go. Plus, it wouldn't make any diffrence to me. I'd still have gained since yesterday, and I'd still have failed on day 1 and 2.
Restarting it tomorrow, and I've decided that I will count my intake as my total, not my net-total. That's just cheating, and I'm glad I got the chance to solve that one with myself before starting it again.
Also, I've gotten my period. I never binge more than when I'm on my peiod. Not because me body need it. But because of the cramps, and my hormones going off. I'm just totally like "fuck this shit", then I eat tons and get even more mad. But honestly, even though I said I'm fasting today, believe me, what I really want to do is just order afamily-sized pizza and eat that for lunch, and dinner, and breakfast. If I leave that much. Thank God I don't have the money.
Girls, I'm hungryyy. I don't want to eat, it's not that. But my stomac is hurting. Do you guys have any advice? How can I stop my stomac from hurting, or maybe prevent it before it begins? And how do you supress the hunger? What makes you move away your focus? Please help :(
My head is hurting. I'm dizzy. I feel dehydrated, but too full to drink anything. I feel warm, yet cold.
So, shortly, I feel like shit. but I've got another lecture (1:35) before I can go. And it's danish. A boring subject with a bad, borring, old, shitty teacher. I cannot take it! I'll drop dead before the end of class, I'm so sure. I can so much feel it! If it wasn't for 0% absensce, I'd skip it. Sadly, I haven't had any absence at all this year, and I'm trying not to ruin that. Gotta save it for some time when I have some good reason for not coming to school, right?
Getting my essay back as well. I am not looking forward to that one. I hate getting graded, 'cause I always produce such crap, 'cause I always do my homework in the last minut posible. Hey, it's better than not doing it, okay?
I'm out of energy in Tetris Battle (disaster!!!). Would anyone like to send me some, then add me on Facebook. Just remember to write about where you know me from, 'cause I don't accept strangers <3
So I guess for now I'm just chugging down water. Going, a to the gym with my mom and sister straight after school, so I'll be able to get maybe 1 - 1½ hour to work out, so I'll be able to burn between 400 and 600, depending on how long I stay and how much I give it. I'm always slower on fasting days. But it sure is the best way to burn all the stored fat, instead of just what you've eaten on a specific day.
Sadly, my mom is my ride home, and she doesn't want to work out for longer than that (I'd love to stay for 2 hours at least, but nooo.) Actually, my dad doesn't want her to work out longer than that. He's really controlling her, and I absolutely hate him for that. He's controlling her, just like he's controlling me and my siblings. But we're his children, for Christs sake! She's his wife, she's a free woman! He have no right to controle her. Glmdfgkrml!
... Speak about changing the subject. Darn hormones.
Hey! I have energy enough for 3 battles now!
So I'll go do that, 'cause I've got nothing more to write about.
I love you all, lovely ladies.
You are so wonderful!
Stay strong, think thin and be beautiful!
- Bella ♥