Tuesday, October 9, 2012

Blissfull joy

Right now, in this very second, as I write down these exact words, I am crying girls. For the first time in a long time, I am crying. I am feeling. And not only am I crying and feeling again. I'm crying because I'm so God damn happy! It's so fucking crazy! And so fucking amazing!
My whole life has just been turned upside down this past month. Everything I knew before, it's gone. I've started a new chapter of my life, and every day I wake up, I feel a little bit better, a little bit stronger. Happier. At last.

As soon as I have posted this, I'll go give my sister the biggest hug ever, tell her I love her, and then I will start on the many school reports that I'm still missing. I'll get up and in school tomorrow, and I'll get through the day with a smile on my face.

I will eat whatever I feel like, and not feel like shit afterwards. I wont want to purge it all, and I wont want to cut myself up for any reason.

I'll love the world, and I'll love life again. As it was always supposed to be.

I love you girls. I love you with all my heart, and I wish you all the best.

Take care!
- Bella