Weekly weigh in + Christmas/New Year stuff

CW: 79,3 kg/174,8 lbs (BMI 28,4)

Loss: 1,2 kg/2,6 lbs

GW2: 78 kg/171,9 lbs (BMI 28)

 

So, I had actually decided that I wanted to reach my goal weight 2 by New Years eve, and mostly, I am an optimist. But even I have to admit that that'll be a little hard. If I hadn't been fucking up so much lately, I would totally have made it. But I can't change the future, and it's nothing I want to cry about (any more). I will be fasting for the next to days, hoping that on the 31st I'll be able to at lease see the 78, even if it's not .0. And this time, I will not break my fast. I have been spending two days eating and relaxing and enjoying myself, so by now, I should have summoned up the strength that I need for it. Really, two days, I have done that a couple of times before by now. I have enough money to buy all the Diet Coke I'll want, and I have excuses enough for a couple of evenings.

Also, gym with mom later today, and maybe Friday as well. Hurray for mom! It's been over a week since I've been to the gym, damn it's going to be hard!

 

So, I never had a chance to tell you guys what I got for Christmas! It was kind of boring, but most of it really needed, so.

From Nicolaj: Skullcandy headphones + white, fuzzy bathrope.

From mom & dad: 700 dkk + a new printer.

From Amanda & Patrick: 5 new nail polishs + 1 mascara.

From grandmother, mom's side of the family: Make-up box.

From grandfather & wife, mom's side of the family: 150 dkk, hidden in a cute little elf-figure-thingy.

From grandmother & aunt, dad's side of the family: 400 dkk.

From grandfather & Kirsten, dad's side of the family: 500 dkk, wrapped around a hair-care product for colored hair.

From the in-laws: 5 books about some vapire-thingy. I like vampires.

And that would be it. Mostly just money (1750 dkk), which you can convert here to get a better picture of how much that actually is. But a handful useful stuff as well, like that printer. We're supposed to bring our own for our written exams when we get there, and the one I had was broken. Which, of course, is why I got it. My parents knew that. And don't misunderstand me, I'm really really thankful for all the gifts given me! I love my family so much. Most of the time. When they're not around for me to listen to all their arguments. I love them as individuals, okay? Oh God, you know what I mean!

Tomorrow, I'm going to Copenhagen, to meet up with my former best friend. Her name is Tine, and she's very very very very very thin. I remember once, we were hanging out in Køge, and we were wearing the same tank top. It was in our scene period (ha ha, I used to be wannabe scene!), and the tights were almost the same as well. Mine were in blue, hers in green, with leopard spots on it. She had the blue as well, and I had the green too. Hair dyed black, with tons of extensions in it. Leg warmes that almost covered out worn sneakers and, tons of necklaces and bracelets dangling on us. The tank top was bright pink, and one of those long ones that goes past your butt, so you can wear it as a dress. Except mine didn't go past my but, and I was wearing shorts underneath it. Tine was so cute in her scene clothes, really tall, flat stomach, cute accessories. I never realized until later how pathetic I must have looked next to her, being 90 kg/198 lbs, shorter, with fewer necklaces and bracelets, ripped tights that had all my leg-fat showing, muffin-top clearly visible through the tank top. And I just remember looking at her, decided that I wouldn't eat ever again until I looked like her. She was such a beauty in my eyes. Oh dear, what a time...

New Year in three days, and I already have the dress! I'm thinking about bleaching my hair for it, then dying it read afterwards. But I wasn't supposed to get red hair until my goal weight 4 or 5 or something. It's just, black dress, black shoes, black hair, black make-up. It kinda gets too much, if you know what I mean?
Oh, and I promise, I'll post a picture of my in the dress, along with one of me in the dress I bought for Nicolaj's birthday (more than a month ago). I remember someone asking me to post it, though I can't remember who. Well, it will be coming!

I don't know if I get another chance to blog before New Years Eve, since I'm going to Copenhagen tomorrow, up to visit my Grandma Friday, and then promised my best friend to decorate her house and make the dinner for New Years Eve. She's having a party. It's not gonna be huge, we'll be 12 people and her mom. Normally, the mom-part would really disturb me, but I know her mom, and she's pretty cool, so I think it'll be alright. I'm really looking forward to it this year, since my last New Years Eve was kinda boring. Anyone who has gone back in my blog know that. It'll be fun to go a little crazy this year, after a year of playing Ludo and drinking apple cider. It was nice last year, though! Very quiet and lovely.

So girls, even if I don't get a chance to make a real update, I promise I'll still be writing to you and wishing you a happy new year and all that stuff. And I will still be reading at any time available!

I love you all, my wonderful butterflies. So so so so so so so much!
Stay strong, think thin, be beautiful!

- Bella ♥