So, today's the day of Christmas Eve!
I must admit, I haven't been looking forward to this night, but now the day has come, I can feel myself starting to think about the presents, the delicious food, going to church with my sister and grandma, and all that sort of stuff. I'm trying to focus on the positive, 'cause my weight this morning was crazy, and I really don't want to think about tomorrow.
I ate tons yesterday, and I didn't purge once! When I say I ate tons, what I mean is, I ate a bit normal - a toast for lunch, two pieces of bread and a bit of rice pudding for dinner - and then tons of Christmas treats. I was at Nicolaj's place, and his mom likes to make all the sweets herself. Home made sugar roasted almonds, anyone? Delicious Christmas cookies in all sorts of shapes and sizes, with tons of different delicious tastes? Put me in there, and you have why my weight has been going up, up, up lately.
But today, I'm happy. Today will be a good day, because I said so. I'm gonna get started with the cleaning as soon as I've posted this thing. Which I will do, as soon as I've written it.
I finally took some time to just sit down and comment on all the recent posts. I know I'm the worlds worst follower, and I'm sorry girls. One of my New Years resolutions are to get better at the commenting, I swear!
I should also go put on some make-up and do my hair. Luckily, there's about 4 hours 'til we get guests and I have to go to church. Plenty of time! Besides, why stress about cleaning a room that we aren't even going to be in? Toady, I'm in a good mood. A chilly mood.
My parents are so brilliant. They though they'd make us all happy this Christmas morning, so they put a small present in each sock, along with a bunch of candy. And I know I'll probably just end up throwing it all out or something, since that would be better than eating it and cry about it afterwards.
I hate how hard this has to be. I hate being such a bitch to my parents, when they're just trying to be sweet. And the necklace I got with the candy really is pretty! I'm wearing it right now, so they'll know how thankful I am.
I'm a bad daughter. I never help at home, I never spend any time with them, I never thank them for anything or tell them how much I love them. Well, all these things are what I never do to my mom. But it's no secret I don't really like my dad, so I guess I don't feel nearly as guilty about that. Which just makes me an even worse daughter, doesn't it?
I'm pretty much empty. I can't come up with anything else to write.
Today it is Christmas, and I'm happy. That's pretty much it, isn't it?
I wish you lovelies all a very, very merry Christmas, or to any non-Christians, happy holidays!
I love you girls so much, and I will be thinking about you tonight, when opening presents and thanking everyone for everything they've given me.
Also, I just wanted to be a good person and post this
http://winterwilloww.blogspot.com/ - It's a new blogger who writes really amazing. I'm her only follower, and I think she deserves so many more. Take a look at it, if not for me then for her, and show her she's not alone. No one deserves to be.
Merry Christmas everyone!
I love you!
Stay strong, think thin, be beautiful!
- Bella ♥