I apologize for being so little on Blogger recently. It's all just fucked. I can't believe how stressed I am. Apparently, it is forbidden to have a social life while being in the gymnasium. How I hate those stupid teachers.
I should really get back to my homework, you know?
Lucky for me, the next assignment is something I' actually looking forward to doing. I'm supposed to write a short horror story for my next english class. Just a horror story. No specific demands. I love it when the teachers thinks you're retarded, and need easy assignments! :D
So, for the ABC.
I know how easily I can fail this.
It takes so little to push myself into binging.
So I thought I should make some genuin rules for me to follow, so I'll be able to make it through easier.
1) Always bring a water bottle to school.
2) Never go to the supermarket. If you need diet coke, buy it before school.
3) Make a list with at leas 10 excuses for not eating (for my parrents, at dinner time)
4) Don't be with the boyfriend too much. He eats like crazy, and I know it'll affect me.
5) Whenever I feel like binging, go to the bathroom, undress, look in the mirror - use the scale if necessary. Anything to avoid eating.
6) Reading will be my way of handling stress. I can't afford to be stressed while doing this, so if the homeworks to hard, switch of and go read some.
Any other suggestions, lovelies?
I feel so unispirering. I can't figure out how I keep getting new followers, when all I write about is failing, and making new plans who never works out. Seriously you guys, why are you reading this shit? What do you get from it? I can't tell you what To do. I can only tell you what not to do. So why am I so inspirering?
I just don't see it.
Well lovelies, I know this is short, but i really should get back to the homework.
I promise to write every day durring ABC, if nothing else, then at least to update on my calorie intake.
I love you all, you guys!
- Bella ♥