Saturday, April 23, 2011

I feel good

I feel happy. I've gotten so used to eating now, it doesn't bother me anymore. This ought to upset me, and I should be devastated. I should stop it! But it just makes me so happy, not having to feel that painful emptiness, country calories all the time. of course, I know this has to stop. And Tuesday, when I return to school after the holidays, I will  stop it. But the last 2½ days... I'm to happy to stop!

So, now I'm finally in a good mood, I though I ought to write something in here.
I've been making a weekly plan, for better control. Goes something like this:

Mondays: 400 calories, 1 hour in gym
Tuesdays: 300 calories
Wednesdays: 500 calories, 1 hour in gym
Thursdays: 200 calories
Fridays: 500 calories, 1 hour in gym
Saturdays: 400 calories
Sundays: 300 calories

And of course all the usual stuff I do everyday, like the sit-ups and such :)
This is good. That, I'll be able to follow. I'm going to look... Better. Not good. Better for the summer. Bikini. Yikes *scared*

My boyfriend's gone. Out of the country. Third day today. He comes home tomorrow night.
Think I ought to make something out of myeslf. We're going to a party together, he'll just meet me there (he's coming straight from the airport :P).
Like, being real sexy? Just one problem. I'm too huge for sexy. For even pretty. Maybe I can be prettier than I am now. Which is, none at all. Lol. Doesn't sounds like I'm happy, but I am :)

Gotta go girls. My grandma and my aunt is coming in less than 30 minuets, so I need to get ready. Sorry for the short post. I was so planing on writing a looong one, but I totally forgot they were coming. Sorry!
Hey, maybe I'll update it later? Let's see about that.

 Stay strong
Think thin
Be beautiful
- Bella


  1. Even if you don't love your body, hopefully you can love how you look tomorrow! Some days I hate everything in my closet and some days I'm like damn.. I look good. For me anyway. Hah and to be honest, most of the days that I love how I look, is when I'm wearing fake eyelashes! Not everybody likes them but I just wear some that aren't too long, and not too many people even notice that theyre fake but just that my eyelashes are full! It's a small thing but it makes a world of difference to me. Smile :) -G

  2. Glad you're feeling good! Make yourself pretty & have a great time at that party!

  3. It doesn't matter what it takes to make you happy, stick with that happiness, love. Nothing in this world is better than happiness.

  4. Wow, that seems like a pretty good plan for the week. I'm thinking of following a similar model. Post updates on the progress!