I had my first official weght-in since last monday, yesterday morning. It sucked, I'd put on a bit of weight, but not enough to let i bother me. I'm in a great moode today.
I'm enjoying my winterbreak from school, really needed that. Just spending time with my boyfriend, doing nothing at all. I love it!
Sadly, it's times like these, when I'm with my boyfriend, that I eat the most. But after eating tons and tons again today, I decided to change that, starting now! He's of to work now, and when he comes back, it'll all be diffrent. Because I said so!
I'm going to buy a guitar tomorrow. I've never really tried playing it, so I'm gonna start from absolutely nothing. But it'll be all right, I hope. I'm buying it used, very cheap, so even if I never learns how to play, the money will not be too wasted. I hope. God, I'm saying that too much! :o
So girls, I'm in some kind of trouble. Despite my high weight, my parrents have decided to watch my eating habbits very carefully, since I'm so bad at making up excuses for not eating. I really need some new ones, something that sounds good and realistic.
My parrents don't care if I feel sick, I still have to eat. Mostly, I'm using "I ate sooo much earlier, I don't feel like eating more", but I can't do that everyday day, since they've told me to stop eating all that junk. You have no idea daddy...
Is it just me, or is it like the world keeps contradicting itself? People wants us to loose weight, but they wants us to eat with them. They keep complaining about how you're not doing enough, but when you're off to go, they complain about how you're never at home. The whole world keeps telling us to do something, be something, anything. But you can never do it in the right way. Why do we bother to try so hard? To be what society expects us to, or our boyfriends, or our parrents. When truth is, we all just wants to be happy, to be able to decisefor ourself, to make our own life.
Okay, enough with the philosophy.
So girls, I hope you're all enjoying life out there.
Stay strong, pretties!