I keep talking to you girls about all my failures. Then I go make some more. I'm so smart, right?
Well, the good news is that it's stopping now. I'm going to do the SGD from monday, and I have to load up to it theese last two days. I'm really looking forward to it, actually :)
To be honest, I'm actually using the boyfriends computer. It's 9am and he's still sleeping. I love him and all, but seriously, he sleeps to much!
And he makes me eat sooo much. Not intended of course, but I just can't help it. When I'm with him, I just don't bother to think about food, calories, and all the other things that makes my life suck so hard. Of course, I do anyway, and then I just feel guilty.
Does this ever happen to you? Do you have that person, that you just can't be with without eating, and just thinking "fuck it anyway" when you're around?
Well, he's mine. But I love him too much for giving up. I'm sure I can work it out.
Every time I hear "Fucking Perfect" by P!nk, I keep thinking about you girls. About all the ana-girls around the world. How you're all so strong, while I'm sitting here, dreaming of being like you. Them. All.
I don't know. I'm just so dissapointed in how much I've put on lately. Like, 1,5-2 kg/ 3,3-4,4 lbs. And I have such a hard time loosing. I hate it. I hate the way my body work. Thanks a hell of a lot to my parrents, for making it for me. Yippie..? ._.
Made a wrong turn Once or twice Dug my way out Blood and fire Bad decisions That's alright Welcome to my silly life Mistreated misplaced Misunderstood Miss knowin' it's all good It didnt slow me down. Mistakin' Always second guessin' Underestimated Look I'm still around Pretty, pretty please Dont you ever, ever feel Like you're less than Fuckin' perfect
Stay strong, all you beautiful girls out there!
Don't ever feel like you're not perfection.
To me, you're everything I could ever wish for.