Saturday, February 26, 2011

I'm bad

I keep talking to you girls about all my failures. Then I go make some more. I'm so smart, right?
Well, the good news is that it's stopping now. I'm going to do the SGD from monday, and I have to load up to it theese last two days. I'm really looking forward to it, actually :)

To be honest, I'm actually using the boyfriends computer. It's 9am and he's still sleeping. I love him and all, but seriously, he sleeps to much!
And he makes me eat sooo much. Not intended of course, but I just can't help it. When I'm with him, I just don't bother to think about food, calories, and all the other things that makes my life suck so hard. Of course, I do anyway, and then I just feel guilty.
Does this ever happen to you? Do you have that person, that you just can't be with without eating, and just thinking "fuck it anyway" when you're around?
Well, he's mine. But I love him too much for giving up. I'm sure I can work it out.

Every time I hear "Fucking Perfect" by P!nk, I keep thinking about you girls. About all the ana-girls around the world. How you're all so strong, while I'm sitting here, dreaming of being like you. Them. All.
I don't know. I'm just so dissapointed in how much I've put on lately. Like, 1,5-2 kg/ 3,3-4,4 lbs. And I have such a hard time loosing. I hate it. I hate the way my body work. Thanks a hell of a lot to my parrents, for making it for me. Yippie..? ._.

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That's alright
Welcome to my silly life

Mistreated misplaced
Miss knowin' it's all good
It didnt slow me down.

Always second guessin'
Look I'm still around

Pretty, pretty please
Dont you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than
Fuckin' perfect
Stay strong, all you beautiful girls out there!
Don't ever feel like you're not perfection.
To me, you're everything I could ever wish for.
- Bella 


  1. its like that with my boyfriend. it sucks so much. i just always say "fuck it" and just eattt. ugh.

    just stay strong. everything will be okay.

  2. i think of all my lovelies here when i hear that song too. i'm gonna join you monday for the SGD. we CAN work this SHIT out!!!