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Friday, July 20, 2012

Very short post

So, tomorrow, I'm leaving for the national scouts camp. 35.000 scouts. In Denmark! That's gigantic! Directly from there on, I'll leave for the beach house my parents rented. So I won't be back home until 4th of August, and probably not updating immediately if the weight has gotten real bad. Like it has lately. Sigh. Festivals really don't do anything for your weight, and neither does depressing sessions consisting of days of eating tons and not purging. So I won't reveal anything until I come back home, and the weight is back down to an acceptable level!

Okay girls. I know lot's of you are disappointed in me, have forgotten me, or don't really care anymore.
I can't excuse that. I have been selfish, updating whenever I want to, forgetting you lovelies for weeks at times (I never forget you! It just might have seemed like that :/ ). I'm so, so, so, so, so sorry. Really. Honestly. I swear.

I love you. You girls are all I have left by now. I'm 18 years old, a grown up, battling an eating disorder, self harm issues and a depression. This is the only place I can be myself. And I can NEVER forget that. I love you guys. With all my heart, I really do love you. (Oh God, I'm crying now. What is the matter with me?!)



Until next time - and there'll always be a next time!

Stay strong, think thin, be beautiful!
- Bella

4 comments:

  1. I hope you have an amazing time away. Please take care.

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  2. Have lots of fun and take care of yourself. x

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  3. I'm not disappointed in you, I just miss you when you're not here.

    Have a great holiday and look after yourself while travelling, ok?

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